“Confidence”
Most of us struggle to feel confident in who we are. Whether our points of vulnerability are physical, emotional, intellectual, or spiritual, we all have areas where we feel less than adequate.
When we focus on these insecurities, our self confidence wanes and we fail to live up to our fullest potential. Out of embarrassment, we shrink back into the shadows, hoping no one notices. Or we compensate for our insecurities by overplaying our strengths, i.e., making everyone laugh because we feel unintelligent.I tried for years to increase my self confidence by improving myself. I concluded that while my “basic package” may not be that great, I could “upgrade” until I eventually became a “good deal.” But that kind of effort does not produce true self confidence.True and lasting self confidence grows naturally when you become comfortable in your own skin. That’s not to say that self worth is rooted only in your appearance. Being comfy in your skin includes being satisfied with your body image, your personality, your skills and abilities, your past, and even your limitations.
At 43 years of age I am FINALLY comfortable in my own skin! I can say that I am a much more confident woman than I was even a few years ago. While I don’t necessarily exude self confidence in every situation and every moment. When I look into a mirror, I love who is looking back, and that did not happen overnight.
For me the antidote for low self esteem has been found in celebrating who I am. Obviously I am not perfect, and neither is anyone else. According to Psalm 139, I am created in a way that perfectly suits me to the unique purposes for which God put me on this earth.
My frame fits my function. My personality suits my purpose. My skills and abilities are most definitely up to code. In fact, my past paves the way for my future and my limitations allow other people to contribute to my life. My future is wide open and I am eager to explore and conquer! Now that’s something to celebrate!
After years of continual procrastination, I went back to college and now I am a year away from receiving an associate degree in Criminal Justice, and then it is off to pursue a Bachelors in Psychology and then possibly Journalism. I have not quite decided if there will ever be a “finality” whereas my education is concerned.
I wake every morning wrapped in the arms of an amazing woman. She is absolutely incredible in every way. She is my soulmate. She makes me laugh like I’ve never laughed. She made me feel joy like I never have before. There are so many things. She is the most wonderful woman I know.
We have planned a “commitment ceremony” for July 5, 2008, and then we have decided to add an addition to our family. Laura will be an amazing mother, she already is with Jenna.
We have two beautiful daughters, as well as an incredibly articulate three year old grand daughter who it seems is a perfect clone of her mother personality speaking, extremely inquisitive and “full of piss and vinegar.”
I have “weeded” my life from negative people as well as negative issue’s. It has taken me years but I finally have control over my mind, body, spirit, my life.
There’s no time to hesitate, It doesn’t get better than this. Right now, right here You only get one chance to live your life, so grab it by the horns and have the ride of your life!
I hope you all have a wonderfully prosperous week!
~Cee~